What are the emotions of an elite gymnast?

well im a ten year old level 9 gymnast for TOPS i train at my gym 32 and a half hours a week not incluing going to open gyms and going to the gym to work out so i have absolutly nooo free time at all and my career isnt even close to being over yet so while im training while my friends are at a party i feel as if i wanna quit gymnastics just throw it away 4get it! but then i think, i think that this is going to pay for my college get me into a great skill maybe go to the olympics while my friends are in the stands WATCHING ME no party no college schollarship no career then i say hey i can do things my frineds dont think is possible then i love the sport so much i punch my self for wanting to quit i love gymnastics and always will!